Enter The Other Dimension

I Feel Like My Mind is Returning To its Normal State. This Past Year I Let My Mind Go To Waste And It Has Took Me Along With It. I'm Starting To Explore The Other Dimensions in my Mind Which Allow Me To Form Better Vocabulary And Bring New Thoughts. I Thought For Good My Mind Was Gone but Some How The Right State Found Me. It's Just What I Needed. I'm Able To Observe Others And Their Mistakes More Easily. Deep House Music Definitely Gives Me Mental Elevation That Puts Me Into Deep Focus. I've Come To Realize This And I'll Never Forget It, "The Mind is Just Like The Human Body, It'll Heal Itself To Its Proper State". Live By It And You'll Soon Find Your True Self, Realization Will Hit Hard.


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Now I Live Alone.

Hey Whats Up. Sorry I Haven't Been On This Much. This is My First Time Being On In Awhile. My Grandma Left This Past Friday Up To Fresno, And Now Responsibility Has Really Set In. I'am Pretty Much Handling It. Its Not That Intense But I Got it Pretty Much On Lock. Me And My Cousin Now Live Here On Our Own Now So We Do What We Can To Keep This Apartment Clean, Which it Is By The Way. Its Really Quiet When My Cousins' Not Here, Especially At Night. I Wish My Grandma Was Still Here Though. She Now Lives in Fresno With Her Family, And I Know She Wants Me To Move Up North Over There But That Means I'd Have To Leave The Fast Life Here And Move up There Which I Know Will Feel Slow. Down Here We Have Nice Giant Malls, And Pretty Much The City Life. I Have A Feeling Like in 2 Months I'll Be Moving Up There Though. I Know For A Fact I'am Gonna Miss The Los Angeles Life Though. Hopefully I'll Meet A Nice Girl Up There And Bring Her To The City Life, haha Who Knows its Just A Thought. This Apartment Gets Lonely Like I Said, The Other Night I Was Eating Dinner Alone With One Light On And Just Started Realizing How Alone I've Become. Me,My Grandma and Grandpa Would Eat Dinner At The Table Everyday, Even My Older Brother Sometimes, But I Just Realized Its Just Me Know, Sitting At That Same Table Alone in an Apartment. Taking My Mind Off The Memories Usually Relaxes Myself But It Doesn't Last Too Long. I Try To Do Whats Right in Life Which is Really Working Right Now. I Think From Now On Things Are Gonna Be Pretty Different. Thanks For Reading, Hopefully Write Tomorrow.

Time Is Setting In

Hey, Haven't Been On In A Few Days. Everythings Been Pretty Much The Same And I Really Have To Get A Job. I Sent My Resume in And They Were Really Impressed. I Called Back But No Answer, Since I Have No Car I Think It'd Be Pretty Hard For Me To Get Around. So Now its Like 3 Weeks Until My Grandma Moves Out So Its Like Crunch Time Now. I Think I'm Going At A Descent Pace Though. Lately I've Really Been Thinking About Acting. For The Longest Time People Have Been Telling Me To Start, I'm Down But I Don't Know, I'll See Whats Up. When I Get My Stuff Together I'd Even Be Down To Take Some Classes. I Want To Get To Everything As Soon As Possible Though. I'll Check Back in Tomorrow. Thanks For Reading.

A Few Ideas

Hey Good Evening! Once Again Today is Going By Like Every Other Day. Monday is pretty Cool Though Because You Never Know What The Week is Going To Bring. Well Me And My Friend Alex Are Planning On Making An Unofficial Music Video for Anthony Green's Song "Drug Dealer" and I Finally Came Up With A Good Concept Today. Alex Went To Film School And Just Recently Bought A Professional Camera So He's Just Trying To Give Himself Some More Experience With It. The Concept I Came Up With Goes Pretty Good With The Song. I'am Gonna Be Playing The Drug Dealer and Its Going To Show Me Wake Up Get Ready For The Day Dressed All Clean Cut Selling Pills in My Ghetto Neighborhood. There A Few Rough Allys Around Here So I Want to Shoot Some Parts in Different Allys. All This is Gonna Be Around Sunset Time So We Can Catch The Sillhouettes of the Palm Trees. I'am Going To Be Slanging Some Pills Until Some Little Girl Walks Up To Me And Somehow Changes My Perspective On Life So Then The Next Day I Change My Ways, And As I'am Walking Outside I Get Killed In A Drive-by Shooting. Remember This Concept is Still Fresh I Still Need To Work On ALot of It So I'll Get Back To You On This. As You Know And I'am Pretty Sure I told You, I Book DJ's for Parties and Make Sure They Get Paid. What I Want To Do is Get My Main Dj (DJ MAZON) to get Booked at After Parties For Movie Premiers in The Los Angeles Area. Since My Dad Has Connects I'am Pretty Sure its Very Possible, I Just Need To Call Him. I Also Want To Ask My Dad if He Knows Anyone Who Owns A Club So That Way We Can Get Him Spinning At Some Clubs Permanently. These Are Just Some Ideas I've Had Lately And Hopefully Soon To Make into Reality. Thanks For Reading I Appreciate It.

Awake Early?

Good morning! Haha Wow I'm Actually Awake Early Today. I Have A Bad Habit of Waking up Late. Ever Since I Graduated Waking Up Before 12 was Always Early. I Don't Know About You But I Don't Think An Occasional Energy Drink Won't Hurt At All. My Choice Would Have To Be A RedBull, But Today I Heard That Those Increase Your Chances of Heart Disease and Stroke. The Drink is Suppose To Make The Blood Sticky Making it Easier For Clots To Occur. I Mostly See People With Monsters in their hands, but before that trend I remember RedBulls Were The Business. Already Went Through That Energy Drink Phase. Now Its All About Fancy Water Containing Vitamins and Nutrients, But Do Those Really Work? Who Knows, I Think You're Better Off Drinking Plain Ol' Water, Invest in A PUR Water Filter and Consider Yourself Set, Thats What I Did. One Other Thing on My Mind is Why Are There Water bottle Bans. Honestly I Think if Everyone Re-uses Water Bottles Then We Wouldn't Really Have Plastic Waste Crisis because if You Really Think about it, Water Bottles are pretty much Plastic Cups. Remember to Recycle. Thanks For Reading.

Finally Friday

Well Its Friday At Last! About 4 Weeks Until I Live On My Own. There is Mixed Emotions About That But At Least I Can Start My Life From Here. I Cleaned The House Today Which For Some Reason Put Me In A Better Mood. It Was This Week in 2006 When My Grandfather Died, My Whole Life I Was Raised By My Grandparents, Well Since I was 6 Months Old At Least. Nobody Wanted To Take Custody So My Grandparents Did. My Mom And Dad Were Always in Jail Due To Drug Abuse. My First 6 Months of Life I Was Raised By Foster Parents, I Have No Memory of Them Except A couple of Teddy Bears. I Had A Very Good Childhood Growing Up With My Grandpa and Grandma. My Grandpa Was A Truck Driver and had been Since He Was like 13, So He Was Always on The Road. Sometimes I Would Go With Him, all The Way to Fresno and Even as close as Docs in Los Angeles. I was pretty young So it wasn't Bad. My Grandma has Been Like A mom to me My Whole Life, And I Even Call Her "Mom" till this Day. My Real Mom Died in 2001 from Cancer. I Spent A Good Amount of Time With Her Growing Up. She Was Visit me for The Weekend And We'll hit Up The Mall with my half brother Johnny. As for Johnny He Lived with me and my grandparents about a year After my mom Died because He ended up Living With My mom For Like the last 5 years of Her Life. Sorry if This is Confusing I Have This Way Out of Line. I Grew up In a House in Fontana on Arrow Route for about 17 years, in January of 2007 we Moved to a much newer in South Fontana. This is The House Where I Went To A Weird Phase. Met An Awesome Girl There, Graduated from High School While Living There. Then in like November 2007 We Had To Move out Because The Original Owners Wanted To Move Back There. in December we Moved To Mid Fontana Which is Where I Currently Live At Now. Some Ghetto Apartments ha ha I Can't Really Complain, I Met A lot of Interesting People Around Here. I Feel Like I Changed A lot Since I Moved Here. Its Just Me and My Grandma That Live Here, And My Cousin Ben who just recently Moved in About 3 weeks ago. He Had Some Differences With His Parents So He Moved Down Here, So Me And Him Are Gonna Try To Take Over Rent Here, We're The Same Age By The Way. My Grandma is Moving Up To Selma,CA (near Fresno,CA) To Live With Her Daughters So They can Take Care of Her, She Feels Like Shes Gonna Need A Wheelchair Soon, And We Do Live Upstairs So She Doesn't Think She'd Be Able To Handle it. Shes looks young and Shes pretty Strong for being 73. As For My Dad Hes Been Clean from Drugs and Alcohol For About 10 years, Now Hes Some Type of Counselor. He Lives with His Friends near Los Angeles. I Don't See Him Much, Last Time I Saw Him Was on Christmas, But He's Struggling With His Health. His Mom is my Grandma by The Way. He Was A gang member When He Was My Age, Did A lot of Drugs and Alcohol and now its Catching Up To Him. Growing Up I Didn't Hang With My Brother Johnny Much, I Grew up With My Cousin Jeremie Rios. Me And Him Were Like Best Friends And Cousins. He was about 3 or 4 Years older than Me. I Just Mostly Remember Growing Up With Him For Some Reason. All Our Vacation Trips When We Were Young Consisted of My Grandparents And Jer. From Rosarito Mexico to Las Vegas,NV to Seattle WA, haha The Fun Times We Had. Sadly Jeremie Died on August 2nd, 2006, about 2 weeks Before My Grandpa Died. It Was A Dark Month For Our Whole Family. Jeremie Died From Drinking and Driving...Long Story. As of Now The One Who Hods These Memories Growing Up is Me. I'll Always Keep Them in Mind Along With All My Loved Ones. Thanks For Reading I Appreciate it.

Just Another Day In The Life

Hey Good Afternoon, Its My Day 3 of Blogging An I Think I'm Getting The Hang Of This. Alright So Today Feels Like Just Like Every Other Day. The Weekend Is Getting Close And I Booked 3 of My DJs For 2 Different Parties So I Feel A Little Accomplished about that. Today Is Just another For Me, I Have no Job Which Really Sucks Because I Need Some Cash, That And I Need To Keep Myself Busy. I've Been Listening To High and Driving all Day, But Only Like 2 Songs. That Dream Really Got To Me Yesterday, It Was So Weird, That Dream Affected My Whole Day. I Kinda wanted To Have IT Again, I Got Weird Urges As If She Was Looking For Me, I Even put A Picture of Her On my MySpace Profile This Morning...Strange. Check It Out, I Even Tried To Force Myself To Have Those Same Dreams Again. I Just Pictured Her But I Ended Up Just Simply Falling Asleep. This Girl I've Been Talking Too Lately Told Me If I were To Have That Dream Again Than It Would Mean Something. I Have No Clue What It Can Possibly Mean Though, Maybe Just Some Weird Phase I'm Going Through. Well I'm Going For A different Look, I Straightened My Hair And Alot of People Seem To Like It This Way So I Guess This is Just The Beginning of The New Me. I've Been Mentally Trying to Regain My Old Mentality Which Believe it or not Was Alot Smarter Than How It is Today. All 2007 I Was So Intelligent, My Vocabulary Was Much Better, I Was Able To Brainstorm Alot, Come Up With Inventions Like Nothing, Actually Had Common Sense But Now It Seems All That Is Gone. I Definitely Let My Mind Go. And This Past Week I Had Made it My Goal To Find Myself Again So I Can Become A New Person With An Old Mentality. Last Year I Use To Spend Hours Among Hours Just Thinking About Ideas,Philosophy,Life,the Future, and A Whole Bunch of Random Stuff Like That. I Use To Even Climb This Hill By My Old House And Just Listen To "Circa Survive" And Just Reflect While Looking Over This Whole City. I Really Hope I Can Do This, I Want To Change My Whole Style, Along With The Way I Think, The Way I Talk, The Way I Live, Even The Place I Live, Get A Job, Take Responsibility, And Even Find A Girl...But That's Last On My List. Of Course I'll Keep You Updated On What Happens To Me, I'm Using This As My Reminder, As If I'll Forget. Thanks For Reading I Appreciate It.